A bit of a different tone to my blog tonight because I am in Mom Mode and sometimes that is good and other times it means I want to hurt someone... Tonight it's the latter.
I still find reasons to bake so that helps me keep my sanity. My daughter runs track so I try to bake for her team on the days she has meets. I received the saddest text tonight from her which I will not post but I have to say that sometimes I wonder if teenage girls actually have a heart beating inside that cute little persona they appear to have on the outside. I am so tired of her struggles in school and the damage that is being done to her as a sensitive kid and my feeble attempts to make sure it doesn't ruin the amazing girl she is. So, I will continue to attempt to convince her that she is amazing and none of the kids in her life at school will be part of her life when she graduates from this place. We will surround her with family and friends that nurture her and make her realize that being who she is is better then being who she isn't to fit in. And most of all I will continue to thank God that I have an amazing teenager daughter that is caring & sensitive which seems to be a dying trait in so many others.
I apologize for my rant but I'm tired. I'm tired of being in a small community where I'm teaching my children the importance of giving back and how it comes back to you tenfold and then sitting back and waiting for that to happen to them and they wait, and they wait. I know as an adult that giving back really does work that way because I have experienced it first hand so I will continue to teach my girls that in time they too will experience it. In the meantime I will continue to cry over the heart break my daughter lives with through these teen years. I will continue to encourage all of my daughters to be strong women but to never lose the compassion that so many young women seem to be lacking. And most of all I will continue to be amazed at the strength they all have shown in being original and who they really are in their heart and soul without ever making someone else feel belittled or alone.
Tomorrow I'll be back to the fun side of my life (and I am blessed to have a wonderful fun part of my life everyday). Thanks for listening, for reading and for being part of all this - even if it's for a brief moment. I hope it brings you laughter & occasionally maybe even a tear or two. It's been quite an amazing, new & wonderful experience for me! See you tomorrow with a smile on my face!
This behavior is not just a girl thing, however it is definitely much worse with the girls. I feel your pain and my heart breaks for her, too. I went through the same thing . . . if a certain kid just doesn't fit the mold, they're out. The nicey nice shit is all fake on the part of some of these kids today . . . you know, the ones who pretend to be nice on the surface, but are waiting with the dagger at a moments notice. I was so happy when my youngest was finally out of that school and moved on to REAL life with real people. Hang in there, Becky. The real world is ready and waiting for unique and special people like your daughter. We would be lost in this world without people like her . . . make sure she knows that!
ReplyDeleteStay positive,as you seem to be doing, Becky. Sadly, as you know, your daughter is seeing the mean side of people. But as you said, all of her life does not have to be like her teen years. I'll be praying for both of you.
ReplyDeleteOn a lighter side, I think it's very impressive that you're still on "the diet" after 50+ days!! Go, girl!!