Day 36 - Let the Fasting Begin!

Lock & load baby!  I can do this.  It's 8:45a.m.  So far, so good! Only 10 more hours to go.  I finished the "Last Supper" at 7:00p.m. last night so I only have to get to 7:00 p.m. tonight.  My initial thought was to call in sick and stay in bed all day watching movies but I realized that I have to face my challenges head on.  It's a bit mind boggling to me this hold that food has on me.  The thing about other addictions is that when you decide to quit you can still live without another drink of alcohol or another drug ~ unlike food.  You will always have to eat so it appears that this food issue will be my constant battle.  I would like to take this time to blame my parents for passing along this mutant food gene.  It cannot solely be my fault... this lack of willpower.  It is definetely not my mom's fault because I have never seen a woman with more willpower then my mother.  She can break a small cookie in half and save the other half to have as her snack tomorrow.  Who does that???  My dad on the other hand will hide in a closet to consume sweets before my mom sees him... Hmmm...I think I know where that flawed gene came from...
Before I'm too harsh on my dad I have to say I have never seen a more pleasant or happy man - ever!!  I absolutely believe that part of that carries over into eating food that makes him happy. His face literally lights up when I sneak him baked goods.  I realize this is far from scientific but as I think about all the happy people I know - it seems to me they are the ones that love to eat.  So does eating make them happy?  I believe it does.  When I think about the people that are fun to be around - we all love to eat - and not the leafy green stuff but the hearty, saucey, rich food.  The ones enjoying their salads and heading to the gym on a daily basis always seem to be a bit on the serious side and on a mission.  My mission everyday is to be happy.  Seems a bit lame and simple but I kind of like that about myself. 
So here I go.  Let's see what no food does to my happy mission today.  Luckily, for my kids sake, they are with their dad tonight.  I'm guessing it's not going to be pretty come 5:00 or so!!