What is this relationship I have with Peanut Butter? I realize I could stop buying it so it's not staring at me when I open my pantry but no - I seem to be drawn to it like a magnet in the grocery store. I justify it by buying the Reduced Fat but the calories are the same - A LOT!!! This diet is teaching me to have a new understanding (and empathy) of drug use, cigarettes and alcohol - the only difference, no one really notices (or cares) if I'm pigging out on peanut butter.
OK, enough about my beloved peanut butter. The exciting part of my day yesterday was when I was ready to get my pjs on last night I actually took my jeans off without unbuttoning or unzipping them. My kids thought a party of one broke out in my bedroom (which by the way, would not shock my kids) and when I told them the exciting news they just stared at me. Oh just wait my skinny little teenage girls - someday you will be old and chubby (the odds are it's going to happen since we do live in the abundant USofA) and you'll think back on this moment when you're getting your pjs on some night and it will all make sense - you'll feel bad that you had your mom committed.
My goal today - stay away from the peanut butter. I'm going to keep myself busy and I thought I would attempt to meditate. The hardest part of that will be for me to sit still for more then 2 minutes. The easy part will be to empty my mind - it's usually pretty empty!
I would love to hit the 20 pounds down at weigh-ins this week. My friend, Jen, did mention a new diet she's trying (which is slightly depressing since she is petite, adorable and skinny - you mean I'm going to spend the rest of my life on a diet even when I'm skinny?). It's the 2 day a week fasting diet. Are you kidding me? A leafy, all vegetable diet w/out sugar or carbs isn't torture enough? Now you are suggesting that 2 days a week I eat nothing? "Oh not 2 consecutive days". Oh, well that makes a huge difference - now it sounds like a perfect diet!!! Just when I thought that a diet couldn't get worse I am proven wrong ~ I know how to lose weight - stop eating anything. Why didn't I come up with this one Someone is making money off this new (great) idea. If I ever look like her - no muffin top ever (even in tight pants), a flat belly, no flab jiggling from her arms and dark curly hair (oh wait, short of an 80's perm which I can't imagine ever going back to - the dark curly hair ain't never going to happen no matter how much weight I lose so I'll give her that one) I have no plans to continue dieting once I look like her. This may be what goes wrong in my prior weight loss endeavors. I have to accept the fact that healthy eating and small portions (or the 2 day a week starvation plan) will forever be a part of my life ~ it's a sad day!
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